Curiosity in the Chaos
I’ve always felt a little outside the usual boxes. Not because I wanted to rebel, but because my mind naturally drifts towards the opposite direction of what’s expected. I question things instinctively — systems, assumptions, and explanations — and my perspectives constantly reshape themselves as I learn. While I tend toward questioning and logic, I have an equal inclination towards humour and absurdity. If anything, these two sides act less like opposites and more like a kind of personal wave-particle duality — not mutually exclusive, just different expressions of the same underlying curiosity.
My thinking has always wandered in directions I didn’t intend. I didn’t actually realise the way I thought was unusual until I got older. To me, it felt normal to wonder whether the universe might secretly be shaped like a hyper-doughnut, or to spend far too long thinking about whether potatoes existed during the time of the dinosaurs — and if so, whether a T-rex would have figured out how to find them. My thoughts tend to wander like that: drifting into odd corners, mixing the *perchance* profound with the absurd, and following threads that don’t always have an immediate purpose. Sometimes it feels like walking a dog whose lead I’m holding: it darts off after scents I can’t detect, triggering me toward questions or connections I didn’t even know existed. Between curiosity, humour, and a kind of organised chaos, my mind rarely stays in the same lane for long.
Curiosity pulls me into the often-overlooked corners of reality: the mind, the body, human behaviour, the structures we live inside, and the contradictions we’re taught not to notice. Here, I explore those ideas and bring them into the light. After endless hyperfocus-fuelled investigations that can appear as quickly as they disappear, I realised writing about them can make them more tangible. Perhaps, or rather, perchance, the outputs of these neurologically-driven trances could help others in some way. Hence, it is those channels of ordered chaos that I wish to share with my fellow humanoids.
What You’ll Find Here
Here, you’ll find wandering curiosities, presented in a variety of outfits. Some arrive dressed like serious scientists, wearing tiny lab coats far too small for the size of their existential crises. Others show up in tie-dye shirts, philosophical and distracted, insisting the universe is shaped like a hyper-doughnut. A few appear in full comedic attire, refusing to take anything seriously except the joy of connecting dots no one asked them to connect.
Whatever their wardrobe, they’re all woven from the same threads: curiosity, pattern-seeking, and a healthy disregard for staying in a single box.
What the ThoughtBucket Is
The ThoughtBucket is where stray drizzles and sudden storms of thought land on the same surface, caught by the dreamcatcher of curiosity and held long enough to morph into something real.